Can I just say.....

When you really need to get some work done, Classical music is the way to go. Doesn't it help spark creativity in people?

Anywhoo, remember this next time you have a gagillion things to do at work. It's a must.

Now back to Bach.

It's official

I've decided to no longer persue, or have a close friendship with my infatuation.

When we first started hanging out, everything he said felt sincere and extreemly romantic. "You've by far exceeded my expectations on who I thoguht you could be. You have a great personality, a fantasic body and a smile that literally makes me melt, imagine that."

He would continue to tell me how amazing he thought I was and how I caught him off guard and he was falling for me fast. How something about me made him so attracted to me, and for that one of his favorite things to do was look at me.

How could you NOT fall in love with someone telling you this? Especially when he's very smart, and good looking. (In an awkward, nerdy way, but I loved it.) He invited me to Disneyworld with him. (One of the only things that still makes me 100% happy is Disneyland/Disneyworld. It's where I can act like a kid and not be embarassed. It's my heaven, no joke)

He completely swept me off my feet. I was on a fast track to head over heels in love, and I didn't provide myself anything to fall back on. You could say I was a typical girl and set myself up for heartache.

So here I am. I made my own bed on this one.

He no longer tells me sincere compliments. Now it's "you looked hot today. You'd look even hotter in some lingerie." He even informed me yesterday that he can tell i'm gaining weight (which i'm trying to gain 5-10 lbs) but that it's in all the wrong places.....meaning my love handles) Any girl would smack a guy for saying that. Damn me and my overly nice ways.

He'll say he's interested and wants to hang out nothing ever comes out of it. To sum it up, he's breaking my heart. And to keep hanging out with him, would be compromsing myself, and I was taught better by the women in my family.

I called my mom lastnight, since she knows all too well how men can be jerks, and how to get through the heartache. She said it sounded like some girl must have jerked him around one time or another and now he's in revenge mode, and I happen to be one of the lucky girls paying for someone elses actions. Fabulous.

I told him today that he enjoys playing games with people and I feel like he completely set me up, and I just won't do it anymore. He responded with "OK, I'll stop talking to you for good now"

I know this should be relieving to hear, but for some reason it just makes it that much more hurtful. To me, that means, ok she caught on to me that i've been playing head games with her, and she's finally had enough, so i'll give up...

Either way, what this means to me is that I'll no longer be talking to him everyday and texting him all night.

But hey, such is life.

Thanks for the help, mom.