Won't do it anymore

Craig called me lastnight. I had just woken up from a nap, and wasn't sure if I should answer it or not. I answered it. (I'm such a sucker) He didn't even mention the other night at his work. He asked me to come see him tonight at his work and come get a drink. I told him I probably wouldn't be coming in anymore, and explained how uncomfortable I was the other night. I know that he feels bad about all this, and I know he's really disappointed as well.. so I can't really be mad at him. But it still hurts to know that even though we had this awesome chemistry (twice!) it still would never work as long as she's around and calling him for help. Example: 4th of July, I had told him about a week prior that I was going rafting down the Snoqualmie River and that if he didn't have anything else to do, he should come with cause it's so much fun. He said he may come, but I never heard a final verdict. I thought it would have been nice to see him and spend time with him again. After rafting, I noticed I had a missed call from him. I called him back, and for some reason he told me he had to call me back in a few. Never heard from him again that night. Why, you ask? Turns out, when I called him, he was actually at the hospital with Eleana, because she had drank too much alchohol, and her friend called Craig. Of course he's the only person in the area who cares about her enough to take care of her. My take on this: He's told me several times that she wants to get back together with him. He's been upfront with both her and I by saying that he does not want to get back together with her. My thought is that she knows he and I want something, and she also knows that he still cares about her to the point of being there whenever she needs someone. She's old enough to know when to stop drinking. I bet you she was pounding beers and thinking "It's ok if I get too drunk, Craig can always take care of me" and that pisses me off. She is literally the block between me and Craig having anything. And the worst part about it, is she is telling him "how bad she feels for me, that I have been put in the middle of this, and I seem like suuuch a sweet girl- she feels she should write me a heart felt letter appologizing because i don't deserve any of this" Craig told me about this letter she wants to write, when I was talking to him last night. I calmly told him to pass along the message that I'd rather if she didn't write me a note, that i'm just tired of it all, and I think the best thing for me to do to help the situation is to take a step back and let them work out their stuff. This of course, sucks for me, but such is life.

We ended the conversation lastnight with him saying "Well, anytime you want to come visit me, please don't hesitate, I really would love to see you again." In which I responded "Ok, thanks. I'll talk to ya sometime."

Ahhhh the joys of the single world.